Crying over you...

26/4/09 20:48
a 5 minutes conversation ended with 'why do i care and whatever'

26/4/09 20:54
I sent :wait, cal me back! 1 minute!

26/4/09 20:58
I sent :Ohya, you just said you don't care WHATEVER I do I say I think and so I can do WHATEVER things in WHATEVER ways I want right? Never mind then..

26/4/09 21:02
I posted this on facebook : why should I care then? Whatever!!


26/4/09 21:32
You sent :You don't have to post whatever I said lol

26/4/09 21:33
I sent : That's not what you said. That's what I wanna say to ya

26/4/09 22:17
4 missed calls from ya..

27/4/09 20:30
1 missed call form ya..

27/4/09 21:41
2 missed calls from ya..

27/4/09 21:44
You sent :You can just send an sms to note that you don't wanna talk. After all it's the last few calls that I'll make.. Bye..till next year..


27/4/09 22:27
Is this the end of our story?

Listening to save you by Kelly Clarkson... Having insomnia...

I can tell
I can tell how much you hate this
And deep down inside you know it's killing me
I can call
Wish you well and try to change this
But nothing I can say would change anything

Where were my senses?
I left them all behind
Why did I turn away?
Away

I wish I could save you
I wish I could say to you
I'm not going nowhere
I wish I could say to you
It's gonna be alright
It's gonna be alright

Didn't mean
Didn't mean to leave you stranded
Went away cause I didn't want to face the truth
Reaching out
Reach for me
Empty handed
You don't know if I care
You're trying to find the proof

There were times I'd wonder
Could I have eased your pain?
Why did I turn away?
Away

I wish I could save you
I wish I could say to you
I'm not going nowhere
I wish I could say to you
It's gonna be alright
It's gonna be alright
It's gonna be alright
Save you
It's gonna be alright
I wish I could say to you

We
Can pretend nothing's changed
Pretend it's all the same
And there will be no pain
Tonight
It's gonna be alright
It's gonna be alright
It's gonna be alright
Save you
It's gonna be alright
I wish I could say to you
I'm not going nowhere
I wish I could say to you
It's gonna be alright
It's gonna be alright
It's gonna be alright
Save you
I wish I could say to you
It's gonna be alright

STUPID STUPID STUPID!!!

AAAAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHH~!!!!! i feel like running for 10 continuous hours and scream my lungs out!!! I HATE YOU!!! IF YOU'RE BUSY THEN WHY BOTHER CALLING ME AT THE FIRST PLACE LARH!!! I rather you just forget about me and STOP calling me if that's the way you talk on the phone!! Don't you know how i feel when i get your call?! How could you just talked to me like that and kept using the word 'WHATEVER' like no one's business!!! Don't tell me a guy like you who knows me so well doesn't know that hurts me a lot?! GO DIE LARH YOU!!

waiting for the perfect man..

I'm waiting for the perfect man.. I always had, still do and will always wait till the perfect one comes into my life. i dun mind even if i have to wait till i become like the one in the picture xP So, please.. come earlier... >.<

爱情

爱来的时候
是真的
爱走的时候
也是真的

被你伤害的人
还真实的存在
你却在生活中
伤害你身边的人

真实的爱情
结束在真实的欺骗
在被真实的欺骗和伤害下
又失去了真实的爱情
有谁会理解如此真实的伤害？
有谁会理解当初真实的爱情？

爱情如此脆弱
你内心深处
要的到底是什么？
爱的又是谁？
要用真心
也要用良心。。。

不然也就只是脆弱的爱情。。。

Dinner at Dragon-I >o<

Urgh~!! I'll NEVER EVER EVER EVER go back to that restaurant again!! Once is more than enough.. Okay, so this is the story. My dad was attracted by this advertisement on newspaper which says you can get a plate of chicken at one dollar. You know, typical uncle =.= Anyway, when we got there, there were a lot of people and you actually need to get a number and queue up before the receptionist call your number and bring you to the seat. At that time, i was like, Whoa, so many people, the food can't be that bad right? We were seated, and since one of my parents friends told them that this restaurant is actually famous for its ramen, all of us ordered different types of ramen and I chose this Sichuan ramen cause it looks delicious in the menu picture! But, the truth is it smells bad and not to mention the taste, it was HORRIBLE!!

Oh no~!! I can't eat anymore!!


this is the ramen i ordered.. Does it look appealing to ya then?


See the fake smile on my face?


Yuks!! I'm soo not going back to that restaurant!!


This is the 1 dollar chicken which caused me to be in that restaurant T.T it tastes not too bad but at least way better than the ramen!!!

I wish..

I wish I could stay with you forever..
I wish I could look at you forever..
I wish I could talk to you forever..
I wish I could love you forever..
I wish I could hug you forever..
I wish I could kiss you forever..
I wish I could smell your scent forever..
I wish I could hear your voice forever..
I wish I could miss you forever..
I wish I could tell you how much you meant to me forever..
I wish I could call you by your name forever..
I wish I could lay on your chest to sleep forever..
I wish I could feel your presence around me forever..
I wish I could share my secrets with you forever..
I wish I could show you off to the world forever..
I wish I could have you holding my hand forever..
I wish I could have you phoning me forever..
I wish I could have you watch me sleep forever..
I wish I could have you as my only 'The One' forever..

I wish..
I wish..
I wish..
I wish.. everything would come true..

Another Day of My Life

I have been holiday-ing for almost 5 months since the last day I sat for my SPM paper... o.O but I had never notice how fast time has flied. It feels like I just sat for the last paper yesterday and I'm turning 18 in 3 months time!! gosh~!! i had always day dreamed on what will I be doing during the holidays after SPM, how mature will I be and all the stuff I had never done before to be done when I turn 18! And yet when I'm turning 18 soon, i have not done anything that I had always wanted to do nor did I mature.. I simply spent my holiday doing house chores, teaching the kids at kindergarten and sleeping most of the time! I never get to explore Malaysia, read all the books I have with me, mature, hang out with friends all the time, lose some weight and turn into a hot lady! oh great, my holidays are ending soon, and I'll be going for my form 6 and yet, I have done NOTHING so far and suddenly it seems to me that I had a 5-month-of-MEANINGLESS-and-BORING-holidays!! oh God, how could I have possibly lived through that 5 months and are STILL living it now?

What to do if stopped by police?

This is a very useful information which i got from a friend of mine through email. Take your time and read it. n.n

The next time you are stopped by persons who claimed they are plain clothes police, you are under no obligation to answer their questions or follow their orders, lawyers told Malaysiakini today.

'Policeman who is not wearing his uniform does not have the authority to stop anyone,' lawyer and human rights activist Sivarasa Rasiah said. Procedures to follow in the event you are stopped by uniformed police Officers while driving:

1. Stop the car and wind down your window.
2. If the police officers ask for your documents, request to see their IDs first.
3. If you are satisfied about their identity, ask them if you are being summoned, and for what offence.
4. Produce your identity card and driver's license and wait to collect your summon ticket.

In the event that the police officers ask you to follow them to the police station:

1. Ask if you are under arrest and for what offence.
2. If you are not under arrest, you have the right to leave.

In the event you are flagged down by persons you believe could be plain clothes police:

1. Do not stop because plain clothes police officers do not have the authority to stop you.
2.. Drive to the nearest police station and lodge a report.

In the event the police come to your house:

1. Do not let them in before checking their IDs.
2. If you are not satisfied, phone the nearest police station and confirm if they had been sent to your house.
3. You are under no obligation to allow them into the house if they don't have a search warrant.
4. Do not go with them if you are not under arrest.

In the event persons who claimed to be plain clothes police come to your house:

1. Do not let him in because they do not have the authority to do so.
2. Lodge a report at the nearest police station.


Sivarasa was commenting on the alleged gang-rape of an 18-year-old Uni student by four men claiming to be police officers on New Year's Eve. The girl said that her car was stopped in Taman Tun Dr Ismail in Kuala Lumpur and were asked by the men to open the car bonnet. She was then told that she had committed an offence and ordered to follow the men to a police station. The girl was driven in her car along the North-South expressway to the Tapah-Cameron Highlands road before she was raped in an oil palm estate.

This incident, and many others, have sparked confusion over the procedures which motorists must follow when flagged down by the police. The most common problem is that most people take instructions without determining if the other person is really a cop,' lawyer Annie Santiago said.

However, if you are stopped by a uniformed policeman, then you are required to stop. But you need not get out of the car because you are not expected to do so, Santiago said. The other rule to follow is to provide your identity card only when you are asked to do so. 'Even then, you should get his ID first to confirm if he is a cop. There is no harm in calling the relevant police station to verify if he is supposed to be on duty that day,' Sivarasa said.

Both lawyers said that motorists should never follow an officer to the police station unless one is under arrest . 'If you are not sure, and your instincts tell you that something is wrong, then drive off to the nearest police station and lodge a report,' Sivarasa said.

In response to the alleged gang-rape of the 18-year-old, Women's Aid Organisation executive-secretary Ivy Josiah called on the police to launch an education program to teach the public about their rights to prevent them from being victimised by bogus police officers.

My Height.. Again =.=

Hehe.. I've just measured my height again, but this time I measured with a tape ruler, which i think is more accurate and guess what?! I'm 1.64m instead of 1.61m which I have always thought I am!! Yeah babe~!! 3cm taller is way better than being 3cm shorter right? hahaha..

p.s. I mean no harm. So please don't terasa =P

My height

Talking bout my height, you have always said I'm short right? But seriously, i don't consider I'm short with 1.61m, and in fact, I'm taller than a lot other girls that I know! So hello~ please open up your eyes WIDE and see how tall I am, as a girl of course, and stop comparing my height with yours cause I'm not a guy unless this is what you consider normal height then yeah, I'm short, so what?!

Is this how I will look like after losing weight?

After the day i saw you in school, you start complaining on how fat I am again. You said you hate the flabby arms and belly and that I have to start work out to lose some weight. But hey, I wonder is this how I will look like after losing the 7.5kg that you want me to get rid of? If this is it, i rather not to lose any weight!!

Giving Up (on You)

I think you would be glad to hear this - I'm giving up on you, you're free to go now.

I had been trying so hard and so many times, to try to mark a clear boundary between us, as you have done it last year, but it seems like I'll never succeeded in doing so. Seriously, i don't understand what you have on your mind. You're nice to me most of the times, but at times you acted coldly, as if i were a stranger to you and these are the times where it really hurts. But i just can't do anything about it, just like Kelly Clarkson's song-My Life Would Sucks Without You. Yeah, I have to admit this, my life would sucks without you. I know i'm useless, making myself a puppet of yours willingly, letting you toying around with my feelings and yet couldn't draw myself away from you. You're like a drug to me, I can't live a day without hearing your voice. I have to stop myself from taking this drug anymore since you're leaving me soon. So please, let me go, and you're free to go too. Cause by doing so you're not only saving my soul but also getting rid of me, this burden of yours, at the same time, isn't this what you want? I'm a human too, I'm a human made of flesh who has feelings like you and the others and I'm tired now. I'm tired of being toying around, so please, let me go and set yourself free.